373 days– that’s how long it’s been since Tommas died.
Tommas Koehler was a dear friend of mine and a very rare sort of person. We sang together, played music together, sat in a wealth of silence together.
He had a voice so low it would rattle the floorboards as well as my spirit. All of the songs that I have on my myspace page right now were written when he was in my life.
And 373 days later– I still cannot believe it. I still can’t imagine how he could be dead. I still can’t bear it. And I still sometimes have nights where I feel nothing but pain because of it.
I will never forget him and I will never get over this loss.
Fuck cancer.
Baby Boy frets, I strum.
You can hear my songwriting on my 
(((((heather))))) xxxx
my mom lost her best friend to cancer in 1987. there are many days when she, too, still can’t believe it.
yes, fuck cancer.
hugs to you, heather.
fuck cancer, indeed!
i’ve only lost a handful of people in my entire life. i feel pretty lucky about that. but it does seem like the pain of it lasts longer than you ever expect it to. i’ll save my hug for when i see you next.