Not ego! Truth.

You know that feeling you get when you first fall in love?

That’s how I’ve been feeling about Me.

For the very first time, I’m not hung up on anyone else. I’m loving my company. It’s amazing what I and me can do, it’s amazing how well I and me get along.

I don’t think it makes me an egomaniac to say it either. I love me now, before I lose a few pounds. Before I change anything else, I accept me. In the mirror I see someone who is always there for me.

I am always there for me.

Very recently, after I split up with my ex, I started chain smoking. In the last month or so it had really become a habit, a way to deal with a future that I couldn’t bear to look into.

But now I have a new interest: I am going to be a runner. And to be a runner, I can’t be a smoker. This is my third smoke-free day. The very hardest day, usually. And I’ve made it.

I’ve been walking in the mornings with my awesome Siberian husky friends, King Buster and Princess. We’re training. My mom has inspired me to run. She’s been doing it for a while now, and I can see this huge difference in her self-image and spirit. She gave me a 4 week schedule– at the end of the four weeks is a 30 minute run. I’ve led a pretty sedentary life for a long time, but I really have the drive now.  I start the running schedule next week.

It’s really fun to walk with Buster and Princess– with them on the leash in front of me, I feel like I’m on a sled running the Iditarod.  They make really swell companions, and they make me smile.

If I can quit smoking, I can run.  If I can run, I can do anything.